february 2nd - forgotten?
The LORD will command His lovingkindness in the daytime, And in the night His song shall be with me-- A prayer to the God of my life. I will say to God my Rock, "Why have You forgotten me? Why do I go mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?" As with a breaking of my bones, My enemies reproach me, While they say to me all day long, "Where is your God?" Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God; For I shall yet praise Him, The help of my countenance and my God. Psalm 42:8-11 (NKJV)
I should have known better than to have asked the question. I saw her countenance and felt like I needed to ask her something. “How are you doing?” I meekly asked. I was not prepared for the answer; honestly, I wasn’t probing for a real answer. After listening to this teenager pour out her heart for an hour—going through a box of tissues—sitting behind the protection of my office desk—I was burning through brain cells for solutions and answers—any word or advice that would serve to bring her comfort and healing. In that moment, I became aware of two undeniable facts: Firstly, the world is not only unfair, it is a dangerous, cold place, full of dangerous, cold people. Secondly, often, there are no adequate answers to the question of “why?”
I think that most of us have been in that place of emotional pain a time or two. Where the overwhelming circumstances of life itself cause us to ask the question that almost seems accusatory and unseeming. “Why have You forgotten me?” In the 42nd Psalm, King David is openly expressing his emotional pain to God. As he hides himself in the Rock, his soul is agitated and his spirit perplexed as he questions God. His soul is cast down. His emotions are disquieted. His countenance is a reflection of a person in need.
In the midst of David's darkness he finds a glimmer of light. That glimmer is hope. David expresses his thoughts: “Hope in God; for I shall yet praise Him, the help of my countenance and my God.” David realizes that God is with him, day and night; and that as long as God is with him there is hope. Indeed, there is hope! Yes, indeed, there is hope!!
Often "we" hang on to sanity for the hope that we find in God. We may reach a place of crisis where we are asking the question, "why?" But, we never reach a place where there is no hope. Even in the tragic loss of a loved one we know that there is a reunion to be experienced and enjoyed on the other side of death's door. Even in the valley of the shadow of death God is with us. We are not forgotten.
Author's Note: I have not experienced much tragedy in my life. Therefore, I have not spend much time questioning God; However, I am not exempt from or immune to the challenges of life. I have experienced disappointment, frustration and even desperation. Welcome to life on a cursed planet. What does that mean for me? It means that I don't run to God, my Strong Tower in times of trouble--in means that I "live" in the Strong Tower 24/7. I'm not forgotten--I live in the house. RJD